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Kate
May 8, 07 - 1:32 PM |
Newbie
Hello, I just came across this website. I used to belong to one quite some time ago but not alot of people post to it and there doesn't seem to be as much kindness. I was really impressed with how much people seem to care. I hope you don't mind if I share a bit with you. Right now I'm feeling so lost and am not sure what in the world is going on with me. I lived in a very abusive marriage for about 10 years and was diagnosed with depression. I was on Paxil for about 2 years, counseling and eventually was able to get enough courage and strength to leave him. I finally went off of Paxil and for many years now have been living very happily. Although my ex has not let it go and we've been forced to deal with restraining orders and emotional harrassment for the last 6 years. I've been dealing with it and most importantly helping my children deal with all the emotional abuse. It's been really hard knowing the right thing to say to the kids and we've been ok. I married the most wonderful man and have what most would call the perfect life. Then all of a sudden, my self esteem took a huge nose dive, I have sadness that seems to be all the way down to my core. At this point, there doesnt' seem to be anything about myself that i like. In fact, I pretty much do NOT like me at all. the bad part is that I'm so supported. I have a wonderful husband, wonderful kids. i should be happy. I had depression before but i thought that was cause of my situation. now here i find myself again. I experienced my first anxiety attack. Went to the dr expecting to find something wrong with my chest or diabetes, or something. he eventually got down to anxiety and depression. He wants me to go on Welbutrin. How on earth could i be back here again? Depression runs in my family but maybe it's just cause of the situation. Maybe i've finally reached my limit in dealing with my ex? Could this really be depression and how do i know if i can deal with it on my own and make it better? Is it really a chemical imbalance? i was so happy not long ago. So very happy. Maybe it'll go away? I'm so sorry for the long winded email..i'm lost. |
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Susie
May 8th, 2007 - 9:38 PM |
Re: Newbie
Hi! I am so sorry to hear that you are dealing with anxiety. I know how hard it is to deal with day to day routines. I went to my dr so many times and finally found out I had general anxiety. I have been on zoloft since i was 22. i noticed a big difference!  I feel that the Lord put zoloft in my life to help me. I have a VERY supportive husband and parents. They mean the world to me. I feel bad though putting them through all my "craziness". I know my husband gets frustrated and my parents worry about me, and that adds to my anxiety, as I am sure it does to you. Sometimes anxiety just appears. Mine came when I was 21, out of the blue! although the last few months I have seemed to struggle again with panic and fear, i know that the Lord will give me the strength to battle my fears and finally find peace. I had slowly decreased my zoloft intake and had a relapse, upped my dosage, but am still having trouble, still having panic attacks. I will pray for you and I hope that the Lord will help you figure out weather to take medication, and with your self esteem. God Bless You Susie |
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Kate
May 11th, 2007 - 8:44 AM |
Re: Newbie
HI Susie! Thank you so much for your reply! I actually did start taking the medication and I went to a counselor yesterday for the first time. On my way home I found out that a dear friend of mine from high school ended his life. It's been such a hard week. You describe exactly what i've been feeling. I am having the hardest time knowing what i'm doing to my children and to my sweetie. He's also frustrated because he feels so helpless. He said that after his divorce he was also depressed but that he emmersed himself into his work and eventually he got over it. I think he has a hard time understanding that this isn't something i can take care of on my own. I wonder why there's a difference? Why is it that some people can overcome on their own and some people just can't control this horrible depression? Does anyone have any good advice on a website or maybe a book that we could read together? anything that would help him understand what I'm going through? How long do your panic attacks last? how often do you get them? do you have chest pain with them or is it just chest heaviness? Are there things you can do that will help stop it when it starts? Do you have side effects from the medication? How do we know when it's ok to go off? I heard that it takes at least 10 days for the medication to start working but i am feeling a bit better. is it just a good day or is the medicine kicking in a bit. This last week seems like a fog and that's so strange. Thank you so much for providing a forum like this. Please take care. Kate :) |
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