Cassiopea,
Actually I enjoyed reading your post but I suspect there is more to all of this (grief & loss stuff).
LOL that your 15 y.o. drags you out to run at 4 a.m.
Well, sounds like you are now Living Life & not experiencing someone else's 2 y.o. behavior (ex).
It does help to be as busy as possible & ultimately not let the loss itself turn one upside down. When they choose to, "opt out," of marriage via having sex with whomever & treat us like dirt.. well waste of time. Again, your story is inspiring.
God Bless.

It sounds like you're getting a chance at a much happier life. No one deserves to be lied to and cheated on. Good for you for taking control.

-Mary
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