Youre going to be ok Lassrynn. You CAN handle this, and you WILL. Let yourself cry it out, and then pick yourself up, dust off, and keep on going. When it gets really tough, remind yourself of why you are doing this. Reread what you wrote in this thread about how you have been treated. You deserve much better. You know that, and you will persevere until this is over and you have it. Yeah, its a nightmare going through it, but your going to come out on the other side much happier. As far as security...I understand that, but you dont need someone else to give that to you. You will create your own sense of security.