I just want to say Thank You for everyone's kind words. I really needed to hear it coming from someone else other than myself saying it. It is a struggle nut I know that I am strong enough to make it through this and eventually have a very happy life. Again Thanks!

Jenn: It sounds like your efforts went unappreciated. It does take time to heal surround yourself with supportive friends and/or family. I was married for 21 years. I'm glad it's over - found someone nicer from a nicer family. It is time for you to take care of yourself whether it be a walk, a long bath, yoga or whatever. I found it helpful not to have any photos around of my ex. They are in the closet for our daughter whenever she wants them as well as the wedding "album" - never really got a professional album, but made one for our daughter complete with baby photos of myself and my ex for her to keep after I pass.