I'm a 25 year old mother of two I've been married for 5 years and has considered divorce. My husband works but when he's home he ignores me and my kids to play video games.. He's very very unhygienic and the thought of sex with him makes me nauseous. I have guiltlessly Cheated on him several times because I'm tired of being alone and he doesn't seem to care all. Then my husbands cousin came to live with us and my kids love him and he's more like a dad to them and he acts like he my husband to me. I fell in love with him but he doesn't want me to leave my husband what do I do