I just know I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to leave him hanging financially but I don't want to have to endure his "wrath" until he realizes I'm serious about leaving. I'd like to say I'm strong enough to take the high road but all I really want is out.

I don't think anyone is ever really strong enough. I am filing dissolution and it feels like I am grieving. Trying to be strong by joining support groups like this one. Good luck to you and take care of you.