Hi, I feel absolutely the same way. I'm in an unhappy marriage, but am not going anywhere for my son's sake. I can't stand the thought of having joint custody. I don't want to share him part time even though I know he loves his father very much. I don't want to miss a holiday or special moment without my kiddo so I've decided to stick it out. I've tried couple counseling which worsened our relationship. I've also done personal counseling and that didn't help much either in terms of obtaining new information about my relationship. Taking it one day at a time for the time being.