After years of trying to control the chaos I finally filed a Temporary Restraining Order and had my husband removed from our home. I know he would feel justified in killing me, but I am so worried he will end up homeless and on the street before he seeks any kind of help. Strange thing is he would have no problem with me being there. In fact, when I checked into divorce, I thought how I kept getting thrown out of my house and forced to sleep elsewhere and how he believed he had a right to everything as his, including me. How does one get over the guilt of standing up for themselves?