Raven, it sounds like you are doing the smart thing and leaving a toxic relationship. I understand how you feel and wish I had left years ago, but I felt the same way, I thought I loved him with all my heart, and that he loved me, so I stuck around and took the verbal abuse and made excuses for him. These small things you are experiencing are abusive. If you feel like you have to walk on egg shells all the time, then something is seriously wrong. Seek counseling if necessary, that is what I am doing.