Thank you Lara for your kind words and advice. I do have 3 dogs. I am going to counseling also. I just feel like there is a dark cloud over my head all of the time. My life is just empty. I am just afraid it will always be like this. I keep very busy and have a strong faith. I don't think there is any hope of him cheating on his girlfriend. She is in pretty high demand and he would not do that to her.
To me it sounds like you aren't ready to move Into a new relationship, if you are still crying. You need to heal from this marriage, or divorce, remember the good things, forget the bad. You will need to forgive him and try to get past it. Join some free groups, learn a new hobby, exercise. Even in a small community there are ways to meet people, join a church if you have faith, or join a group or club even if you have to drive to another town.