To me it sounds like you aren't ready to move Into a new relationship, if you are still crying. You need to heal from this marriage, or divorce, remember the good things, forget the bad. You will need to forgive him and try to get past it. Join some free groups, learn a new hobby, exercise. Even in a small community there are ways to meet people, join a church if you have faith, or join a group or club even if you have to drive to another town.