I'm really sorry to hear you so upset. I felt the same way when I went through a divorce from my first husband. I remember sitting in our walk-in closet and just crying so hard, feeling like I didn't want to go on with out him. But guess what, I felt the hurt... and now I have two beautiful little girls. Their dad and I are going through a breakup (common law divorce) but had I not went on with my life I wouldn't have my precious babies. And there is something good waiting for you too. Whether you get back together or not. Just imagine... what if you meet a man who would never leave you... period? Best of luck to you. Your heart WILL heal.