I never would have thought of it as physical abuse, because he has never actually physically touched me in anger. I just don't know what to do about it, I can't talk to him about it, he flies into a rage. I can't talk to friends about it because if he found out I was he would go into a rage over that as well. I've been contemplating just leaving while he's at work and deal with the repercussions. It seems like a really cowardly way to do it though. It's getting to a point where this is not a healthy home for our children. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm complaining, this is the only place I can really be honest about it.