I think what you said makes total sense. Having it on feels like a security blanket noone can judge or ask you questions. Sometimes I get sick and when I get home I throw it on the table since he broke his vow to me. :( My husband said he filed by mail and is waiting for a case number but that was 3 weeks ago so every day I wonder is someone going to serve me or will he show up and say sorry. :( My life is really in space and I have no closure either way or can't heal. Thank you again.