Abby is so right when she states that everyone on this forum will heal in time. I remember not sleeping when it all began...getting only 2 or 3 hours of sleep at the most. I remember thinking there is no way I am going to make it through all this and I remember thinking my tears would have no end. Nights were really hard and quiet parts of the day were also. I know you must have it really hard without the support of your mother...but she is there in you and all she has taught you and in all the love you know how to give yourself and others. I believe death is only the end of the body for now. A mother's love never dies and Abby's words do ring true....we all heal in time. I am further up the path than some of you are now and I can see a light and feel the hope that awaits ahead.