Thanks so much for the responses. Sometimes it helps to know someone feels like you do. Racheal you are so right about the part where he hates himself. I guess I have known that for years and tried to find out why and help him through it. But he would never co operate in any counseling or anything. Everything was some one else' fault. Even our children, he blames. He has gone so far as to say our son, who passed away 3 yrs ago, wasnt even his child. I think his saying that let him off the hook to have to go through the grief process. But that is the one thing I will never forgive him for.
I will get thru this, it is just so sad.

This is probably not the right advice, who knows! But gee whiz if he isn't there at the auction. I would be inclined to have some very expensive items put away in the back somewhere and sell them myself to the highest bidder!

I would too Denise. But I'm sure it's not the right thing to do

had the same thought, but I need to get as much as possible out of the auction, so I can counter balance
my home which I want to keep. I raised all my kids here and have made a beautiful memorial pond in memory of my son here.

Thinking of you. Hope all goes well.

It will be over kat and you will have survived another challenge making you even stronger.
While they run, we stand and fight.
In the end we will have grown as human beings.

Good luck. Do something nice for yourself when its done, you jolly well deserve it.

Thanks so much everyone, just talking to someone helps.