wow, I so understand. I feel like sometimes if he would leave then everything would be better. I too have kids and don't want to take them out of their home. I am also going to school, but it will take at least 3 more years for me to make my goal to get a job to make enough money to be on my own....... I sometimes feel like giving up and just accept the circumstance I live in because he doesn't physically abuse me and he makes enough for us to get by, but every time I do he does something to make me want to leave more so I keep chugging along. I just wish there was a quicker way to get this over with.

Jen, I wish I had better news for you, but it is a long and hard road. That doesn't mean it's not worth it, though! Through the challenges of the divorce there is also acceptance and healing. The more I see the jerky side of my stbx show its face through this process, the more thankful I am to be where I'm at-out! Keep faith.