Ashyah,

Divorce is so difficult & God Hates Divorce.
LOL if I could go on a date & we talked about me & my ex / I'd be happy. but of course that's ridiculous.
I agree it's very hard, to start over, to figure out how to rebuild after divorce. But staying close to God is so very important.
I feel so many times in my life God Has Given me little tests, to see what I will do, the direction I take, etc. I of course won't know exactly how I did on the test until my judgement day. But it seems that when I feel I am offending God, or potentially so, I get a sickened feeling inside of myself.
I felt this way last night when I went to bed & this a.m. But friend, the guy I went out with, just as a friend but I could not fit it into my brain correctly & even though nothing happened in any romantic sense (kiss, etc) just the thought of being with another man sent me in tailspin. I think a tiny bit might have been not enough sparks BUT each time this occurs (3 x's) it is that nudging from God it seems.. that connect & any time it feels like there is going to be a break between me & HIM, then I can't continue.
SO, yes, there are nights alone, some not, much prayer & pleading for healing, BUT what I am finding is that what matters THE MOST is my connection with HIM, that it is.
NO BLOCKS.
The thread about our strength, it is inner strength & in union with CHRIST. When we veer from it I think our spirit lets us know & then it's important to listen closely.

Very good ideas from the other posts. Sounds crazy, but I do a lot of research on anything that I am feeling uncertain of in this process-finances, housing, child support, custody, etc.. For me knowledge brings strength. Then I stay so busy I don't have TIME to do anything but stand up tall.

Becky,me too. They say knowledge is power. well not sure if it is or not but I love it. There is much information online & like you anything I am contemplating I can spend a lot of time learning more about. It is empowering!

Today I met with a credit counselor, met with my attorney, made an initial call to a bankruptcy attorney, got the number of a realtor and too my son to his counselor. I thought I had been educating myself, but man was there a lot of information thrown my way!!! My head is swimming, my stomach hurts and I'm exhausted!

Becky, it is exhausting. I spent so much time it seems dealing with have to's in this divorce. I am still not done but about 1/2 way there. The financial is nearly complete. YES, lots of information & paperwork.
I think what amazes me is that I know that ex moved on, left everything to me to deal with. However, if one is talking character, at least I am responsible enough to deal with it, he never was & proved that (didn't pay on the debt).
It's like we are doing the work of both parties by ourselves +. I think the support comes in terms of others that have been through this..
God Sees All. :)

Hang in there! My theory is that as long as it isn't getting worse & there's progress, I'm happy!
& I do feel @ peace. It's just so much work & such a difficult road to walk in getting to where we need to be post divorce.