I can understand how you feel. What you are going thru is one of the reasons why I stayed in my marriage. I did not want another woman to get what I worked so hard for and get what is mine and have the love and respect that I wanted every single day. I have not started the divoce process yet because my husband is still in his stage of I am in a bad mood and will go back to my old self. Every now and then he gets a hint and becomes angry that I am doing this. He still refuses to look at this as his fault. I know that if I were in your shoes I would be feeling the same way that you are feeling. I would be angry that he can find someone else so soon and have a family so soon with out giving an ounce of a thought about how I would feel. Well I think that he does not care how you feel about it and perhaps he is looking for a reaction from you. He may be the type that can not be alone and will take who ever he can to have anyone with him. It sounds like you were his first victim and his new girl friends will be his second victim. You have to live life for you now. When you see them together happy and laughing , in the same car and house.. That is what you see on the outside and it may be diffrent on the inside. Sure they will be happy for awhile but sooner than later you will get used to it and you wont even relize it and you will also go on with another someone else. Someone that will love you the way you wanted years ago and respect you in way that you did not even think was possible. You will have that happy feeling and smile.. that feeling is what you look forward to. I wish you luck and I know you will get through this. Look how far you have come sofar . Look where you started out at and where you are now. You may not feel like you are at the top right now but I know that you are no longer at rock bottom.