I don't have any answers or even know how to stop my brain from thinking right now but this chat room is a great place to get support and to talk about everything thats happening and to find out how other women have dealt with it.
I think we all have those thoughts. My way of dealing with them is to stay busy. So nights and weekends are the worse for me. I have so many things going through my head. Good luck and keep busy. I have been separated since march last year. Divorced since January.
Kristin, I am sorry for what you are going through! My husband is on a 2 week trip to see the OW and it has been he** on earth since he left. I too, have no family and only 1 close friend nearby who has saved my life by being there for me.
Here is forum I found for those of us dealing with a spouse who is having a midlife crisis: mlcforum.midlifecrisismarriageadvocate.com/
There's lots of info on this forum that has helped me to see that it's not me, even though I still do blame myself for my part.