I do agree with those that tell me not to sulk...to pick myself up and be strong, but sometimes we just have to allow ourselves to be upset. Its all so exhausting isnt it?

Dont let anyone be telling you what to feel or what you should be doing now. By just going with our feelings at any given moment..in my opinion...is what helps us heal.

I know its hard, but just try the best you can to keep the faith that brighter days will come.

Take the time to cry and have a bad day. I fought tears for several days and felt horrible, but when I just accepted that I needed it and let it go, I felt a release. Then I have had some strong days, when I thought I could take it. Hang in there. I know it is hard to when they seem to be going on with life just fine, and we are suffering. But know you are not alone.

I was never a very religious person. I guess I believed in God but my parents had major differences in their beliefs which caused issues and so us kids weren't really raised with much religious background. Now I pray. I simply had to find something to offer me some comfort and relief. It works. I am still struggling to have faith that God wants what's best for me, that he wants me to be happy again, that I will have someone to give and get love from again. Faith is a struggle for me but I hope that God understands that. He created us to question didn't he?
I have also created a sort of mantra for myself. My prayers include asking God to help me have these things each day. I repeat my mantra to myself whenever I have a weak moment. I find that it helps me find my center and carry on. The mantra had changed and evolved a little over time as I find new things I need to work on but right now I ask for help with these things: Strength, Courage, Faith, Hope, Honor, Restraint, Trust, Grace, and Love. I do realize that some of them seem repetitive but each one has a special meaning for me.
Good Luck. I am with you, everyone here is. We WILL get through this.