You sound alittle different now. I like that! I know I've asked before and if you'd rather not mention I'll understand. How old is your son? Is he able to speak? Is he high functioning. As I've mentioned my granddaughter is autistic. She is just starting to talk alittle. She is 4 years old. She has 3 hrs. theraphy at home and 3 hrs at a school for autistic children. Thank God my daughter and son-in-law are both lawyers because it is so difficult to get the services they need. I hope your husband whether or not you stay married continues to share in this 24/7 job with you. Hopefully you can remain friends at least so you can co-parent. You are very special I hope you can see that. You would make any man so proud to be his wife. I think your husband is just broken and you can not put the pieces back together. I will pray for you so hard that this has the right outcome. Maybe God doesn't want you with a man who can't appreciate you good heart and loving spirit. I also feel your being way to hard on yourself. Your husband is not perfect he has faults. Why do you hold yourself up to impossible standards? You are perfect just the way you are. Thank you for the lovely Easter thoughts.

When Jerk first left I had to set the ground rules for his visitations here: He can't come unless he calls first, visitation is arranged through me not through his children, he must knock and wait for someone to answer the door, etc. I can say I'm OK with them staying here if he has a limited amount of time for a visit, AS LONG AS he respects my space. If it were all of the time, I wouldn't be OK with it, but a few times a month isn't so bad. I can see where you do need a break. You can learn to run errands, pay bills, take a nap, etc., when he has his visitations. Keep us posted.