I just wanted to say that I wish you all the best Kiki. I know its hard to believe right now, but you are going to be just fine. As you go through the divorce process, you are going to find strength within yourself that you didnt know you had. You have it in you..we all do.

I wonder why the kids cant know about what is happening. If they are unhappy...asking to leave the house, would it be such a bad thing? Sounds like they know that things are wrong already, so maybe it would be a positive thing in their eyes.

As far as meeting people, even if you decide that religion isnt for you, churches often have divorce meetings that have nothing to do with the church..they just meet there. Also, there are different types of churches. If you go to a few there may be one that is a good fit for you. I dont know how much time you have, but would a little volunteer work be something you could do? Maybe at a hospital, library or something like that?