Dear Bridget, Everything I have read and heard about moving on states no contact. Do you have someone, anyone who you can call when you feel the urge to call him? This would be like a sponsor similar to AA. You need someone to talk to whenever you need. You could post here and we would try and help you through that time. He may just miss you to if you don't contact him at all. You need to start building a life without him. You need to grieve more. The lost hasn't ended for you because you are the one left to deal with all the heartbreaking decisions and deeds to do. I'm really so sorry about your animals I know this is also like losing your husband. You sound like your not ready yet to let go and it's OK to do it on your own time table. Just try and guard your heart more. I know you can do this and not contact him. When you do it just causes you more pain. He has hardened his heart and you can't get through to him. Please don't give him any more chances to hurt you. We care so let us be here for you in your darkest moments.
Thank you all so much. My biggest problem is the strongest feelings of missing him come at about 3 a.m. and all my friends are sleeping because they work. I do post on here sometimes during that time but I don't get anyone telling me to not do anything!!! So far so good. I know it just hurts me more but I just don't know how to stop the feelings. I am working on it and I really appreciate all the support I get from you ladies. Thank you all.
Tell ya what, Bridget. You e-mail me a beckiejop@yahoo.com and we'll "chat." I'll provide you that lifeline anytime day or night. Make sure I know by the subject line it's you.