Hi ladies and thanks for all the support. I feel like I am stuck in concrete, afraid to move. I fear losing everything I have worked for, not only my home/family/husband/identity my mind as well.
I know I have no choice, he has made this for me, this is all his doing, not mine! I can't move past the feeling of being ripped off and didn't see it coming, not for one minute. How deceiving can these men get? I don't know anymore if I do love him or just miss the US and our marriage, our commitment to each other to take care of each other, no matter what.
How did this all go so pear shaped?
I struggle each day to not contact him and all I want to do is call him and tell him to come home and sort this crap out! What does this other GIRL have that I could not give him? She doesn't even know him, yet she has chosen a married man to sleep with, fully knowing he has a wife! I have too much respect for myself, I could never sleep with another womans husband regardless of whether they were seperated or not. He is STILL MARRIED, all I can think is that she must be desperate as she is single with a child and is getting looked after by an older guy with a huge income, meal ticket I say.
I know there is nothing I can do now except keep praying for my mental stability to return and my feelings of despair to lessen. Thanks again to everyone, and I am sorry for the rant, but you all know exactly the feelings I am struggling with every minute of the day, take care.
I am so sorry for your pain. I to can't figure out if I love him still and miss him, or just miss us, or just miss being part of a couple? I truly thought he was my best friend and what these guys do to us is such a betrayel.
It is just unimaginable to me that my husband could do this to me after so long. Right up to the day I found out he would tell me he loved me. As soon as I found out he told me he hasn't loved me for over 20 years. Now he tells me that isn't true but he loves her more. I just don't understand where their morals go.
I know things will get better for all of us but it take so much time. It just seems that time crawls by and some days it is just hard to do anything, even get out of bed. that is what this site and all of us are for, eachother. And to let everyone vent all they need to. So keep venting and just put one foot in front of the other one day at a time. That is what I keep telling myself....a million times a day.
Hang in there.
I would have to agree with you. Any woman that goes after a married man with a family is desperate. Even if the man was lying. You can't tell me a woman that is secure, happy with who she is, and having any moral values would even think of taking part in the destruction of a family....ripping out the hearts of a caring wife and mother and of innocent little children. That is why these women who, betray, steal, lie...etc have blood on their hands. Not to mention, along with the husband, destroying a vow and marriage deemed holy and blessed by God. She is either desperate or is so into herself as the ex that they have no fear of God, Himself.
Either way, I'm with you, Married men are off limits. When you start to miss your husband or begin wanting him back...remember what he and this woman have done and know that you really don't deserve a man in your life like this. I know God has something better for you out there whether it is a man or a new life and you just have to get past this storm to get to the promise of a rainbow on the other side. Keep the faith and hope. You are all in my prayers.