Good for you getting a new start and home. I hope to be doing that myself soon. As far as the feelings, I know what you mean. Mine come and go like that too. I am still waiting for final divorce papers so that doesn't help, but the mourning of the life I thought I was going to have continues. Some days bad, some days not so bad. Know that it's normal. You are doing the right thing moving forward with your life. Your children will adjust, and I am sure you will be able to find a good and decent man to spend the rest of your life with. One day at a time, that's how we have to go. You will make it. Let us know how you doing.