Hi Bethany. This is a good chat forum & supportive women. I've posted for quite some time off & on. I change my user name at times to remain incognito because I worry (probably don't need to as much now but who knows) if my ex tracks me.
There are support groups online for women that are dealing with divorce. You might google/search women + abuse, also, if your husband is narcissistic or psychopath natured, there are support groups for this as well.
I utilized them heavily during different splits. When we finally did divorce I felt the need to just be still for a number of months but support groups are a huge help.
Sometimes the local YWCA if there is one in your area is familiar with women's supports for domestic abuse/violence.
It's been quite a while since my marriage ended (almost 2 yrs) & I still have a very hard time wrapping my head around all of what he did to me/ my life/ our life. It still blows my mind.
I have since found stability in my environment BUT putting my life back together will take a lot longer.
I think healing comes from sharing ... it's good that you are reaching out.
Hugs!