I am so sorry to hear what has happened to you, Betrayed.
This author endured a similar issue and still managed to find happiness again:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1693393220
I hope you can use this info to get back into your life and find happiness again. It's out there, it just depends on you. Please also find the XM Station "The Message", Shine FM, or a similar station to listen to. It truly does help!!!