Sorry this happened. You deserve better than this. Focus on taking care of yourself and your kids. My ex was out late from the start of our marriage (no infidelity, just strip clubs, etc.). I go to senior yoga and joined a low cost health club after the divorce. Even going for a nature walk with the kids can give you a lift. Have coffee with supportive friends and/or family. Best wishes.

I'm so sorry for what you are going through! I too met my husband in high school, 21 years ago, but we separated for 4 years after an affair he had then got back together. Now after 9 years reunited he is leaving me again. I can tell you that the 2nd time is no easier than the first but I can also tell you it does get better. It just takes a lot of time and a lot of support.