My husband of 34 years has decided he wAnts a divorce. In November he confessed he was leaving me. The following week was my Birthday my kids had me over for dinner and he was mad he was not told and invited. He finally left a week ago. Now it is like ripping off a bandaid, the hurt is just as bad as when I found out. He never did anything around the house to help me and was not home very much in the past year. Why is this so hard to accept? Any advice how to move on would be great.