A good amateur author, Dorian Wright, shared their path of going though divorce after 20 years. The book is on Amazon and Google Books, and is called "20 Years Gone: A Divorce Story". It highlights what they endured, and how they managed to turn it all around and find happiness once again.
Don't let this be an end point to your happiness. You have plenty of new ways to make money, return to childhood interests and dreams, and much more. Many are lying in a hospital bed right now from COVID or other illnesses, just wishing that they had the opportunity that you have right now. Don't waste it!
I’m so sorry for you. I am in the same situation. I feel angry my emotional well being was not nurtured. Can’t go back. I feel very lonely and with a lot of pain. He lives in silence. Never really got to feel safe.