When the final straw broke in my marriage and I asked him to leave.
I had felt a weight lifted and relief finally. I was realizing over the last year or so that I was wishing for terrible things and that I really didn’t care or have feelings for him anymore.
The only part I am struggling with is the adult loneliness. I don’t miss him at all, I miss someone being here with me but is not him.

Thank you for the advice. We are basically living as roommates, although I still want some kind of emotional bond. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to simply let go of him. He’s toxic and so is this marriage.