Good Evening
I have not getting along with my 63 years old husband ,
He has heart problems for almost 5 years and other sickness … he still can be independent of himself.

I cannot handle his anger issues for many years.
I have to think before talking to him to avoid arguments so he will not get angry or start yelling at me!
The reason I am not filing for divorce is because he is sick and he has no one to take care of him later when he really becomes sick, even when he gets sicker I will not be able to handle him because he is a difficult person to deal with very stubborn, hard headed, he always think he is right and he thinks that I need or I must have to agree with him just because I am his wife.
He has a Sister but she has her own family to take care of.
I do not know what to do?
I even don’t know if I love him?

Sounds a very unequal ‘relationship.’ Not many paid workers would (or should) put up with being verbally abused, feeling like they are walking on eggshells and afraid to talk openly, let alone an unpaid carer as his wife. You don’t owe this person anything. How can you ‘love’ someone who shouts at you/is angry towards you? That’s not reciprocal love-that’s actually abuse :(