Hi, I can't really give you any advice, but i thought you at least should get í hear you, and nothing of this is easy, i fall apart regularly. Although it initially sounds like he wanted to try counselling and try and work on things his actions doesn't really reflect that. I often wonder why they get to be happy, and get what they want and we are left stranded in a bloody mess. All i can tell you is take one day at a time, cry when you need to as long as you get back up. Thinking of you.