i was married for 32 years. I'm sad that you're going through a divorce and the loss of someone you loved at the same time. 33 years is half your life spent with the person you cared about the most. losing that person has to feel sad, i can't imagine. it hurts so much while you are waiting for the emotions from divorce or a death to lessen.

just try to get through every day, release the emotions, try to find something to bring some happiness back in. you and i will eventually make it through.
sending love and support...