I'm so sorry you're going through this. That is a long time. My first one was my first Love we were together 17 yrs.This marriage was so unresolved.We were leading a Christian life going to church worshipping together and he didn't want to try to fix it because I was having female problems and couldn't preform I felt like a caged animal he gave up on us.We were together almost 4 years. I hurt everyday and don't understand. Do you want to express more about you're situation? I'm using Joy for alias hope to find joy again. I'm so blessed and I know that but at this point I'm so sad.
You say that you still love him. What I have come to realize in my own situation is that I love the man I thought I was married to not the one he is now. My husband left me over a Cam girl only to move in with a different woman who he is only using until this scammer Cam girl shows up. It’s been a year. He is not the person I thought he was. Write down why you love him and what you don’t like about him it might help you.
Ty for your response I have been told by several people he is not the one I fall in Love with, it is so sad breaks my heart. He was my Christian partner, I wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. I'm devastated I was told he was pretending. My alias is Joy looking for it again