Trust me I have been there. It is going to be a very hard journey, but don't give up! If you are paralyzed by fear and not sure how to move forward, I can help you with that.
I have a FREE podcast episode and a Paid Course to walk you through the journey.
To find the podcast episode just search for "From DEVASTATED to Divorced" where ever you stream and listen to episode #8. You can also find ways to connect with me there for details on the course.
If you are interested in therapy, I highly recommend BetterHelp online therapy. You don't have to get dressed and go to an office. My therapist was very kind and understanding and really opened my eyes.
I wish you well. Take it one day at a time. Wait one day before making any decision.