So sorry that you’re hurting so much. Separation and Divorce are extremely painful whether one wants it or their partner wants it, either way it’s excruciatingly painful. I am myself in the same boat and all I’m trying to do to heal and recover and to become a better and stronger version of myself is to take care of myself. Do everything possible for your self care and eventually self growth. Take care of both your mental and physical health. And someday all this won’t hurt the same way and will only make you a stronger and better human being. Hang in there and focus on yourself for the time being. I am sending you lots of strength and love 💖