Please don’t make the mistake I made of thinking there was no cheating. You hope not, but most likely there was. Married 33 yrs, and had no clue and would have called Jesus a liar if he would have told me differently. Found out 12yrs ago when he sat me down and confessed he had fathered a child almost 2 yrs prior with a 20 yr old. Now almost 60, I am finding out stuff almost on a daily as we prepare to divorce. Let him go, focus on you. Let him see if she’ll stick by him to the grave. You don’t have to find someone too. Find you all over again. Love yourself and the rest will hopefully fall Into place.