I am not sure how to deal with this pain of the level of loss I feel in my life. I had already lost 2 boyfriends to suicide and now I’m divorced from the love of my life. It was a 5 year marriage. I never loved anyone so deeply in my life or ever found to meet anyone as beautiful. I am kind of dating here and there but I realized it’s unfair to the man since I’m still in love with someone else. I literally cry myself to sleep every night. That is if I get to sleep at night. I wake up crying. I am in so much emotional pain for many months now that it’s unbearable on why God would take my soulmate away from me. I feel like I am on hell on earth. I need help. Prayers , inspiration, anything. Thank you.
Hello, and my apologies for your pain. It WILL pass.
One way to help is to see the pain that others have endured: if you read "20 Years Gone: A Divorce Story" by amateur author Dorian Wright (on Amazon and Google Books), you will have the opportunity to see what others have endured in this unfortunate process that is divorce.
Dorian has a happy ending, as they DID find happiness again with another. It can and will happen to you as well, as long as you allow it.
Another thing Dorian references is to check out a Christian song called "Not Today" by Hillside Worship. It talks about not letting bad thoughts and feelings in during your time of pain.
You have to remember that, yes, you are going through something awful. BUT, you're not going through COVID, and lying in a hospital. Be thankful, and use this time to do things that others wish they still could. Step out of your shell as a divorcee, and embrace the fact that you still have the opportunities to go for walks, go to movies, etc.
Until you develop a tolerance and resistance, avoid songs, restaurants, etc that you knew with your ex. Go back in your mind to the things you loved as a child, and start back from there.
Go outside and feel the sun on your face if the weather allows. Move forward, not back. Good luck!
Because God knew he WASN’T your soulmate and the time spent I think that relationship meant you were tied to him and not free to therefore met your soulmate. You are now free to do that. God is looking out for you and paving a pathway to happiness for you 🌞
Because God knew he WASN’T your soulmate and the time spent in that relationship meant you were tied to him and not free to therefore meet your soulmate. You are now free to do that. God is looking out for you and paving a pathway to happiness for you 🌞