What a POS. Clearly being selfish. You deserve at least an explanation or a goodbye. I know it's hard to just erase decades of memories, but honestly you deserve better. I know how you feel right now. Hopeless, deflated, unloved, I may even say worthless. That's at least how I feel at times. I hope you get the strength to realize your self-worth. It's about time to put yourself first. It sucks, I know that we feel our lives are defined by our relationships/marriage. But can we honestly say we were 100% happy most of the time. Well , You are better than that man. I'm sorry for the pain that will linger for some time. I hope that you get through this.