I don't know, but you can still love him and also choose a better situation for yourself.
You can choose a divorce and to not live with him anymore; and you could still see him and maintain a relationship with him. Just because you divorce him doesn't mean you'll never see him again. Alot of that would depend on him and the choices that he makes.
After I filed for divorce, my ex- finally went for the therapy that had been recommended to him repeatedly, he's on appropriate medication. He and I are able to have a positive relationship, spend time together with our children.