Hello Sarah
Thank you for responding
I do not feel bad living him but I feel Sorry and Sad for him and I am hoping that he will find someone to take care of him so he will not feel lonely and I am against being “friends” with ex husband ...it will never work for me
Either you stay with your husband or stay out of his life

I do like to read books
I like to walk
Every other week either my kids will visit me or I will go to their house
I love to watch Netflix at night time
I do keep myself busy to distract myself by not thinking about him
Sometimes I wonder if he was able to find someone that will take care of him if he does for sure I will be happy and for sure I will not have to think about him anymore
Why? I feel this way even though I do not want him in my LIFE