I know. I know. Men are cruel when it comes to divorce. I feel like I’m being so reasonable but my husband has changed so much it’s like “who are you dude?!” I feel like hell and have fleeting thoughts like why do I exist if this is my life after 20 years of marriage. It’s lonely especially when “the good times” memories pop in your head. So if it comes to divorce - I’m sorry - try to be strong hope it works out amicably for you’re sanity