Thanks girls for your support. It does actually bring some peace knowing that I am not alone & if you girls can do it then I certainly can trot along with you. 50% of the time is probably where I am at too, minus a day or two when I probably reach the 99% misery scale. I suppose that is progress! I started getting sick & throwing up today during a bit of a crying spell. It did create a wow this is not ok moment. I subsequently called a therapist. I suppose the potential for some relief is a step towards healing.
~ I hope we can all look back someday & feel Blessed & thankful that our relationships did end. It is sad that one person can have such control over many of our thoughts. I know that it is me that is imprisoning myself, not my husband. I hope all of you have a Peaceful night, sweet dreams & wake up to a day that is positive.