My husband has always been very particular about what I wear, which has never bothered me because I want him to find me attractive. But I just stumbled upon his "spank bank" of porn on his laptop and I am appalled and humiliated that he has me dressing up just like these skanks in porn. I had no idea. From my long acrylic nails to heavy makeup, now I know all of this is some kind of fetish to him. Now I know why he has been hinting around about me getting breast implants. He is trying to turn me into one of his porno skanks!!! I am so disgusted with him. I really like my weekly mani/pedi appts and various beauty routines but now they are permanently associated in my head with his jacking off porn habit. I have always given him sex and never once said no. He has an excessive sex drive too where he pleads with me about needing sexual release every 12 hours and I have never once withheld because I do my duty as a Christian wife. But here he is chatting to these family-destroying *****s online who just want to bring him down to Satan's level. I am broken. I have done everything he has asked, played out every one of his fantasies, stayed thin, been his perfect Trophy Wife at church, and now this is what I get in return. A slap in the face. I am as exchangeable as any of those sluts he masturbates over. I am so tired Lord.