Sorry. Should have read it Closer that he left. Apologies. But i wonder if you can take this time to get a therapist and work on things. I still know you are terrified. But i wonder what new doors will be opened for you now. Apologies again. But. Even tho you are terrified, use it as strength to get back at him. File for divorce. And make sure you take and get everything so he is left with nothing.