All of what your feeling is perfectly normal. Don't feel guilty over the way you are doing things. In this situation we are sometimes FORCED to do things in ways we don't like just to protect ourselves. This does NOT make us bad people.Be proud you are taking care of YOU.
Dont feel guilty. If I knew my husband was even thinking about doing this I would have started doing things behind his back to prepare because I know how mean he can be. He called me yesterday, he is also very self-centered, and told me he was breaking his promise to come back in June and help me move and at the same time get his stuff, but also threatened me if I didnt send what he wanted, he would file right away and not pay the bills till june and would take me off the medical insurance which I need for a little while longer. He is very selfish and doesnt care how much he is hurting me or his daughter. Hopefully she will be going to college in 2 years, but its hard. There is no reasoning with him on anything.