I hope you will soon be on the mend both physically and emotionally. I know when I'm not feeling well everything seems blown out of proportion. Not to say you don't have alot to deal with. You need more time to grieve your loss is all. All your hopes and dreams for the future have been destroyed by the snake and worm. You are very bright with a kind heart. If your new gentleman isn't the one someone will once again win your heart. It just takes time. Just know we care and hope you find peace. P.S. I can certainly relate to your problem with the new kid with the food alergies. My beautiful 4yr. old granddaughter is autistic and feeding her is such a challenge not because of allergies but because autistic children many times will only eat certain foods. She would only eat ham, hotdogs, and meatballs. I make a shake for her with everything in it. We have a blender which will puree anything to a liquid. I steam fresh vegetables then add fresh fruit, yogurt, toffu, avocados and orange juice then mix it with ice cream. Sounds strange but she will drink it like a shake and her overall health is good now. Keep posting we are all here for you.