Thanks Lynn for your support, also I can relate to everyone on outside who doesn't, "know," the ex also thinks he is something else & don't know his abusive nature (he is habitual abuser). He Needs attention of other women, he does not understand true intimacy (he does but he chooses LUST & irresponsibility).
What I will say is that at least now I am out of the line of fire because as you know & those that are abused, nothing is right, & they need a fall guy (or gal). Lynn, the only peace I find is thinking of him potentially in purgatory because I really believe he will continue to draw people to him & spit them back out after he uses them. He doesn't have trouble finding admirers/sex partners/ (i have much more graphic words in my head of what I think of his behaviors). He (my ex) is a con man... As to me, it is amazing what a toll it takes, & same here, he made sure that almost every person I knew before was out of my life before he left for good. He is about destruction. I've pieced my life back together slowly but it's been so difficult with all I had to deal with (legal/paperwork etc).
God Sees All. I guess I'd rather be on this side of it because seemed to me he was about destruction...
Lynn, divorce is hell, but I really think that losing a child would be so much worse. I feel that I can lose my husband, the bast*** found someone to screw with and left me 5 months ago, but I couldn't bear to lose my girls. They are grown, 23 and 28 but they are my life. I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. We will be here to support you with the mess to come.
Welcome and good luck. It isn't an easy road but you sound like you are ready for it. Hang in here. And I understand the whole being made to feel like you are stupid. And you know what, you might be surprised who sticks up for you, I know I am. Once again, good luck.
I completely understand about being Catholic and feeling you had to stick with it. That's what I did for the last 10 or 15 years of our 33 year marriage. I hung on because I was/am Catholic.
Even before he comitted the final betrayal I went to a lawyer to see about a legal separation. This was a Catholic lawyer who will not take on divorce cases. He told me that legally a separation was really rather worthless and didn't give me any protection. Two years later I had to go to a different lawyer to get a divorce after the abuse and betrayal escalated.
Thank you, everyone for all of your support. My heart goes out to everyone who is dealing with the dream of a happy marriage being shattered. People who are friends of both my husband and myself are starting to come forward telling me they knew of his temper and that they never really liked him in the first place. I don't know if this makes me feel better or not. I guess it comes to show that people don't like to stick their noses in other people's business....but this is one time I wish they had. I might have gotten out of this marriage a long time ago had I known I would have had the support. Lesson learned. I can't look back, I can only move forward. God bless!!